The Phoenix

Phoenix

When you feel that you have given your all,
When you feel that you’re deteriorating and ready to fall..

When you feel that you have nothing left,
When you feel that you are better off dead..

Close your eyes and take a deep breath,
Affirm to your self that you have been blessed.
You are given a mind and you are given a soul,
Believe that you are and you will make yourself whole.

What happened yesterday can no longer be changed.
Move forward and embrace the new day.
Become like the Phoenix and burst into flames,
burn your old memories and cast them away.

Ignore the people who say you cannot change,
the longer you listen the more you’ll go astray.
It is not about them, it is about you..
Rise from the ashes and become anew.

It takes great strength to continue on,
But the strength is in the mind and not measured in brawn.
Take one day at a time and always remember,

The fire is within you and it will always be,
Rise like the Phoenix and shine in all your glory.

Who and Why

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Hi, my name is Karina. I am a twenty-six year old girl, traveling down an unknown path. I am filled with relentless thoughts and an unwavering ambition. I strive for perfection knowing it is non-existent. I am constantly seeking knowledge and always questioning what is. My mind is mutable therefore my beliefs are fluid. I accept that I will never have all my “whys” answered, yet I continue to ask them. I became infatuated with understanding my mind and who “I AM”, about eight years ago. Sometimes I worry that I am crazy. I am in love with the idea of love but I don’t know how to be “in love” with someone. I am impatient, messy and indecisive. I get frustrated with myself because I give into what my body wants, more often than what my mind says I should do. I am an open book and put myself “out there” more than I should. I overanalyze everything until I forget what I was originally contemplating.

Amongst the chaos that runs rampant in my life, my mistakes and heartaches have definitely catapulted me into being a better person. I have figured out so much about myself in the past eight years that although, I don’t know exactly where I’m going, I know I am on the right path. I have always tried to impress people and make my self seem more appealing that I began losing sight of who I really was. I realized that I needed to shed everything and everyone and really embrace who I am and what I want.

With that being said, I am on WordPress to relieve myself of all the emotions that currently inhabit my mind and soul. I feel that when I write, my fingers just start typing away and the outcome always seems to enlighten me and shift my perspective. I write without expectations and write with passion. I write because I love. I write for you and I write for me.

I would really appreciate any feedback, criticism, anything that you feel you would like to share.

 

 

 

 

Within

The sun begins to set
the light begins to fade
and darkness starts to fill the skies.

She stands there overlooking the horizon
wondering as to how she believed her own lies.

She drops to her knees and looks up at the heavens
it is now dark, like the veil over her eyes.
Temporarily blind and desperately seeking the light.

Her hands dig into the ground in attempt to gather strength
but the dirt sifts through her fingers and back onto the earth again.
She cries out in desperation, in hopes of receiving an answer
She hears nothing but her own whisper, “All I want is love”.

Her mind tells her she isn’t ready but she insists she is.

Her mind replies with this:

“Look at yourself and tell me what do you see.
Look at yourself and see how you’re crumbling.
Desperate for love but failing to see..
that the one who needs love, is your own body.
It’s not that you need anyone else,
what you need is to focus on yourself.

Become the word that you breathe,
Become the vision that you see.
Nobody can lift the veil from your eyes
besides the will that you have inside.
A solid foundation must be layed before anything can be built,
cracks and broken pieces will only cause you to wilt.

As your mind, I can guide you and make you see
but I can’t make you take the step, if you are not willing.
We are all one, yet we are three…
Your body, your mind, and your soul were all crafted so perfectly.
We all work together yet we are all moving parts
a beautiful masterpiece, surely a work of art
You can’t take care of one without minding the other,
the key is to balance each other.
Love yourself and all that you are,
when Life feels you are ready you will be amongst the stars.
Your soul will not leave you until your mind and body have learned,
their lesson on this beautiful earth.

Look for strength within and you will then realize,
that love has always been there.. waiting for you to find.”

She stands up and sees the sun starting to rise,
slowly she begins to see the light.

She whispers to herself, “There you are, I can finally see.
I’ve looked everywhere for you, besides inside of me.”

Into the Night

She looks out of her window and into the starry night.
Millions of fireballs burn with an effervescent light.
She walks into the darkness, yet her face is illuminated.
Marveling at the sight before her that was magically created.
The wind caressed her skin and glided through her hair,
She danced to the sound of the night without a care.

As she spun and twirled she noticed someone standing there.
A face unbeknownst to her, she couldn’t help but glare.
Handsomely rugged and with piercing eyes,
Her heart started beating rapidly to her surprise.
Unsure of what was occurring she starts to walk closer,
getting a better look of the man that chose her.

He extends his hand and asks for a dance.
She hesitated nervously but took the chance.
He pulled her close and held her tight,
They waltzed to the music of their hearts until the morning light.

All you need 

Oh, bleeding heart..
What can you tell me?
Please save yourself from me.

In these desolate and confusing times, save me from an emotion-filled mind.
The story seems to read the same, she gave her heart and a bit was chipped away.

Often feeling naive and vulnerable, her hopeful spirit is resilient and uncontrollable.

Always overlooking and failing to see… The only love she needs, is me.

Me is you and you is me…

Oh bleeding heart,
What can you tell me?
You are the only thing that you need.