Wanderer

I once thought that I was lost..
Walking aimlessly through life
With no reason or no purpose
Always questioning and never living.

I felt that Life would deprive me of what I wanted,
and give me plenty of what I didn’t want.
Everyday was a battle with my Self,
A battle with my mind.

It was a continuous search for something that I was never going to find.
Something that was intangible, unable to be seen.

What I was looking for was a feeling,
A feeling that I’d once felt.
A feeling that would disappear once I started searching outside of myself.
A feeling that was repressed by my desire to question everything.

Each day, Life presents me with a choice.
A choice to suffer or a choice to live.
Suffering is optional.
It was something that I became familiar with.
It became a plague in my mind, relentless and debilitating.

Always thinking about what I didn’t have
Always thinking about what I desired to have
Always thinking.

I have not always made the best choices
and continue to make choices that to some, might be wrong.
But I have never appreciated Life for giving me the option to choose!
Right or wrong, I live for every moment.
Every experience, every choice.

I stopped looking and started embracing.
I have told myself this many times, wrote about it, thought about it…
Forced myself to believe that I had found what I was looking for
when really, I didn’t know what it was.

I will continue to wander through life
because that is who I am.
But I will walk with a purpose and a reason to smile.

That reason is Life.

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The Phoenix

Phoenix

When you feel that you have given your all,
When you feel that you’re deteriorating and ready to fall..

When you feel that you have nothing left,
When you feel that you are better off dead..

Close your eyes and take a deep breath,
Affirm to your self that you have been blessed.
You are given a mind and you are given a soul,
Believe that you are and you will make yourself whole.

What happened yesterday can no longer be changed.
Move forward and embrace the new day.
Become like the Phoenix and burst into flames,
burn your old memories and cast them away.

Ignore the people who say you cannot change,
the longer you listen the more you’ll go astray.
It is not about them, it is about you..
Rise from the ashes and become anew.

It takes great strength to continue on,
But the strength is in the mind and not measured in brawn.
Take one day at a time and always remember,

The fire is within you and it will always be,
Rise like the Phoenix and shine in all your glory.

Within

The sun begins to set
the light begins to fade
and darkness starts to fill the skies.

She stands there overlooking the horizon
wondering as to how she believed her own lies.

She drops to her knees and looks up at the heavens
it is now dark, like the veil over her eyes.
Temporarily blind and desperately seeking the light.

Her hands dig into the ground in attempt to gather strength
but the dirt sifts through her fingers and back onto the earth again.
She cries out in desperation, in hopes of receiving an answer
She hears nothing but her own whisper, “All I want is love”.

Her mind tells her she isn’t ready but she insists she is.

Her mind replies with this:

“Look at yourself and tell me what do you see.
Look at yourself and see how you’re crumbling.
Desperate for love but failing to see..
that the one who needs love, is your own body.
It’s not that you need anyone else,
what you need is to focus on yourself.

Become the word that you breathe,
Become the vision that you see.
Nobody can lift the veil from your eyes
besides the will that you have inside.
A solid foundation must be layed before anything can be built,
cracks and broken pieces will only cause you to wilt.

As your mind, I can guide you and make you see
but I can’t make you take the step, if you are not willing.
We are all one, yet we are three…
Your body, your mind, and your soul were all crafted so perfectly.
We all work together yet we are all moving parts
a beautiful masterpiece, surely a work of art
You can’t take care of one without minding the other,
the key is to balance each other.
Love yourself and all that you are,
when Life feels you are ready you will be amongst the stars.
Your soul will not leave you until your mind and body have learned,
their lesson on this beautiful earth.

Look for strength within and you will then realize,
that love has always been there.. waiting for you to find.”

She stands up and sees the sun starting to rise,
slowly she begins to see the light.

She whispers to herself, “There you are, I can finally see.
I’ve looked everywhere for you, besides inside of me.”

Into the Night

She looks out of her window and into the starry night.
Millions of fireballs burn with an effervescent light.
She walks into the darkness, yet her face is illuminated.
Marveling at the sight before her that was magically created.
The wind caressed her skin and glided through her hair,
She danced to the sound of the night without a care.

As she spun and twirled she noticed someone standing there.
A face unbeknownst to her, she couldn’t help but glare.
Handsomely rugged and with piercing eyes,
Her heart started beating rapidly to her surprise.
Unsure of what was occurring she starts to walk closer,
getting a better look of the man that chose her.

He extends his hand and asks for a dance.
She hesitated nervously but took the chance.
He pulled her close and held her tight,
They waltzed to the music of their hearts until the morning light.

Riding the storm

As each day passes I realize more and more,
my daily duty is to venture and explore.
Before setting sail and traveling across the sea,
I sit still and listen to what my intuition tells me.

She tells me to be patient
She tells me to be me,
She tells me to stay positive
and most importantly to be free.

Release the chains that bound my mind,
Transcend the expectation of being limited to time.
Rise above the negativity
and embrace life blissfully.

It seems as if a veil is lifted from my eyes each day,
The sun seems to shine brighter and I realize it’s all going to be okay.
Without Your guidance and without Your strength,
I would sure get lost and become quite possibly estranged.

It’s not an easy path to follow
but nonetheless one that can be done.
It all requires patience and the willingness to move on.
Even if today might seem impossible to face,
accepting that we don’t have all the answers might be the only way.

The path of least resistance is what most of us like to take..
but perhaps the problem lies with the inability to face,
to face the fear that compels us to make the decisions that we do
not realizing that we only have to listen within to ascertain the truth.

Our mind and soul is much more than we think it to be,
it is far from static and in turn, constantly evolving.
One day we can feel like we can’t continue on
but that is just a test to see what we are really made of.

The drive and the fire that burns deep within,
cannot be put out unless you have already given in.
Accepting that life can be quite complex and overwhelming,
can assist in providing clarity and understanding.

A truth beyond our comprehension awaits patiently to be revealed.
All we need to do is trust the intrinsic voice that speaks..
The journey to explore ourselves doesn’t necessarily need to be
physical in nature or tangible for us to see,
that something magical permeates our surroundings.

It might take a day or it might take a decade,
eventually life will unfold in its own special way.
We need to be able to just sit back and watch..
and when we feel that we are being steered into undiscovered waters,
there is no need to fear what we do not know, any longer.

Even if we never make it to our destination,
perhaps Life had other plans for us and we can only embrace it.
What will come will come and what will be done will be done.

Let us now set sail and navigate slowly.
Understanding that we cannot overcome a storm by careless rowing.

Patience and perseverance will almost always guide us through.
Leave the uncontrollable in His hands and the rest is up to you.