Ego

You’re a part of me but much different than I
You get angry, jealous, bitter and try to control my life.
I sometimes wonder who’s thoughts are in my head,
“they can’t possibly be mine, thats something I would have never said”.

They say your name is ego.
Where did you come from?
And why don’t you leave?
Why do you insist on being a part of me?

You seek to find identity within the vastness of my mind
Often creating a sense of self that feels its superior to mine.

By denying your existence,
I am negating a part of my self.
Although you will always linger,
your demands and negativity will be quelled.

It is important to be mindful every single moment,
That I am the one in control of my emotions.

I have the ability to live a life free from negativity,
the key is believing that I can be anything I want to be.

If I decide I want to be happy,
who are you to take it away from me?
You fill my mind with doubt and worry,
whispering that I am not worthy.

I proceed to think I am battling myself,
but it is you, and has always been,
it is the ego within.

When I feel anger, I know its you.
Trying to bait me into making me look like a fool.
You tempt me to act out on my emotions,
to act before I think and cause a commotion.

When I feel sadness, I know its you.
You lure me into depression,
You make me think that I deserve what I’m going through.

Today is the day, I put an end to you.
The only reason you’ve come this far is because I have allowed you to.
But now I am conscious of your methods and deceit..
I can be anything I want to be.
And in every moment I will choose to be happy.

 

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The Phoenix

Phoenix

When you feel that you have given your all,
When you feel that you’re deteriorating and ready to fall..

When you feel that you have nothing left,
When you feel that you are better off dead..

Close your eyes and take a deep breath,
Affirm to your self that you have been blessed.
You are given a mind and you are given a soul,
Believe that you are and you will make yourself whole.

What happened yesterday can no longer be changed.
Move forward and embrace the new day.
Become like the Phoenix and burst into flames,
burn your old memories and cast them away.

Ignore the people who say you cannot change,
the longer you listen the more you’ll go astray.
It is not about them, it is about you..
Rise from the ashes and become anew.

It takes great strength to continue on,
But the strength is in the mind and not measured in brawn.
Take one day at a time and always remember,

The fire is within you and it will always be,
Rise like the Phoenix and shine in all your glory.

Into the Night

She looks out of her window and into the starry night.
Millions of fireballs burn with an effervescent light.
She walks into the darkness, yet her face is illuminated.
Marveling at the sight before her that was magically created.
The wind caressed her skin and glided through her hair,
She danced to the sound of the night without a care.

As she spun and twirled she noticed someone standing there.
A face unbeknownst to her, she couldn’t help but glare.
Handsomely rugged and with piercing eyes,
Her heart started beating rapidly to her surprise.
Unsure of what was occurring she starts to walk closer,
getting a better look of the man that chose her.

He extends his hand and asks for a dance.
She hesitated nervously but took the chance.
He pulled her close and held her tight,
They waltzed to the music of their hearts until the morning light.

Riding the storm

As each day passes I realize more and more,
my daily duty is to venture and explore.
Before setting sail and traveling across the sea,
I sit still and listen to what my intuition tells me.

She tells me to be patient
She tells me to be me,
She tells me to stay positive
and most importantly to be free.

Release the chains that bound my mind,
Transcend the expectation of being limited to time.
Rise above the negativity
and embrace life blissfully.

It seems as if a veil is lifted from my eyes each day,
The sun seems to shine brighter and I realize it’s all going to be okay.
Without Your guidance and without Your strength,
I would sure get lost and become quite possibly estranged.

It’s not an easy path to follow
but nonetheless one that can be done.
It all requires patience and the willingness to move on.
Even if today might seem impossible to face,
accepting that we don’t have all the answers might be the only way.

The path of least resistance is what most of us like to take..
but perhaps the problem lies with the inability to face,
to face the fear that compels us to make the decisions that we do
not realizing that we only have to listen within to ascertain the truth.

Our mind and soul is much more than we think it to be,
it is far from static and in turn, constantly evolving.
One day we can feel like we can’t continue on
but that is just a test to see what we are really made of.

The drive and the fire that burns deep within,
cannot be put out unless you have already given in.
Accepting that life can be quite complex and overwhelming,
can assist in providing clarity and understanding.

A truth beyond our comprehension awaits patiently to be revealed.
All we need to do is trust the intrinsic voice that speaks..
The journey to explore ourselves doesn’t necessarily need to be
physical in nature or tangible for us to see,
that something magical permeates our surroundings.

It might take a day or it might take a decade,
eventually life will unfold in its own special way.
We need to be able to just sit back and watch..
and when we feel that we are being steered into undiscovered waters,
there is no need to fear what we do not know, any longer.

Even if we never make it to our destination,
perhaps Life had other plans for us and we can only embrace it.
What will come will come and what will be done will be done.

Let us now set sail and navigate slowly.
Understanding that we cannot overcome a storm by careless rowing.

Patience and perseverance will almost always guide us through.
Leave the uncontrollable in His hands and the rest is up to you.

Reflection

I see my reflection
unsure of who’s looking back
I can’t tell if I’m dreaming or in some sort of trance.
I wander aimlessly through this troubled world
Often feeling like some distant foreign girl.

Very few understand me, including myself
I often wonder why I’m so different from everyone else.
I’m consumed by my thoughts hoping to find
Some sort of message that might have been left behind.

The passion inside me, the burning desire
To understand who I am or what will transpire.
There has to be more than what meets the eye,
I can’t just sit around and let time pass me by.

I will search deep inside and do whatever it takes
To fill the void that makes my heart ache.

The choices I’ve made and the ones yet to come
will only shed light on what needs to be done.
Everything always falls right into place
even if it was once considered as a mistake.

Who is that girl looking back at me,
time will soon pass and we shall see.