You’re a part of me but much different than I
You get angry, jealous, bitter and try to control my life.
I sometimes wonder who’s thoughts are in my head,
“they can’t possibly be mine, thats something I would have never said”.
They say your name is ego.
Where did you come from?
And why don’t you leave?
Why do you insist on being a part of me?
You seek to find identity within the vastness of my mind
Often creating a sense of self that feels its superior to mine.
By denying your existence,
I am negating a part of my self.
Although you will always linger,
your demands and negativity will be quelled.
It is important to be mindful every single moment,
That I am the one in control of my emotions.
I have the ability to live a life free from negativity,
the key is believing that I can be anything I want to be.
If I decide I want to be happy,
who are you to take it away from me?
You fill my mind with doubt and worry,
whispering that I am not worthy.
I proceed to think I am battling myself,
but it is you, and has always been,
it is the ego within.
When I feel anger, I know its you.
Trying to bait me into making me look like a fool.
You tempt me to act out on my emotions,
to act before I think and cause a commotion.
When I feel sadness, I know its you.
You lure me into depression,
You make me think that I deserve what I’m going through.
Today is the day, I put an end to you.
The only reason you’ve come this far is because I have allowed you to.
But now I am conscious of your methods and deceit..
I can be anything I want to be.
And in every moment I will choose to be happy.